Monday, July 21, 2008

It's here

Tomorrow is the day I've dreaded for the last 6 weeks - the 6am flight to Miami with the three kids (and my sister). Which means getting up three kids at 4am. Which leads to whatever sleep-deprived repercussions will follow for them throughout the torturously long day.

Which means I feel like the summer is over. I know it's not, but I don't have kids in school, so really every day feels the same anyway. It's just the feeling of being here in Utah surrounded by family, playing with cousins, etc. is over. I've loved it. I'm not the kind that ever thinks a stay here in Utah was too long. I'm not the kind that is so ready to go home when I'm done.

Especially this time. Because it leads to the other two things I'm frankly terrified of: living in Miami, and being alone with my three children. I know other people have three kids. I know people manage just fine. Personally though, it terrifies me. My family has done such an amazing job of keeping me stocked with volunteers (from 6 years-old and up) at all times, that I've rarely had to be alone with all three kids. It's been fabulous. I don't know what I'll do with Cash either, he wakes up asking for his cousins, sings songs about them, and truthfully doesn't mention much about either Ryan or me.

So now I move to a place where no one knows me, I'm not living close to anyone, we're far away from the church, which means church people live far away from us, and no one will know what I really feel like having these twins and the toddler, and no one will help take ownership of my problems like my family does. Isn't that amazing though? I wish I could have been half as attentive and clued-in when my siblings were going through their child-bearing years. Thanks guys. You're the best.



15 comments:

Tyler Jorgenson said...

You're flying first class right? You know they have a nursery up there.

Lu Lu said...

You are so lucky to have such a wonderful family! I'm honestly jealous. The twins are getting so big. Wow, time flies when I see other people's kids. I would love to come and visit...not sure how I'd work it...take Jack leave Simey? Take both...uh... I could come alone like next year. Best of luck. Call anytime.

Lu Lu said...

Oh and I think you are going to find a totally awesome hair style! Yelp will help you...it helped me.

Stefanie Miller said...

Dang it! I was hoping to make it up from St. George before you left. Well by now the worst is hopefully over and you have arrived safely to your new home. I do hope the transition goes well for you. Best of luck!

Julie said...

So it's 3:30 A.M. and I'm up and ready for the flight. Mom mentioned a picture on the blog so I thought I'd look. Didn't know that I'd end up bawling.

This is a day I've dreaded too. Deep breaths over the flight. We'll survive somehow, but the end of my almost daily visits with the boys in Utah. I get a few more in Miami but I know those will go by quickly.

You are a wonderful mother Jen. Somehow things will work out. Like with a nanny, or babysitter, or house cleaner, or some kind of help! You'll somehow survive these years. What's so cool though, is not only survive, but somehow enjoy it at times too. Like you really are darling with your family and have so much love for them and it totally shows. You are a great mother!!!! You really do have this down. I know it doesn't feel like it, but I don't think it ever does. You have done a wonderful job training them to sleep well. An area I totally lacked in. Just stick to your routine and schedule. That's what Supper Nanny would say. :)

Well let's do this! Time to come and pick you guys up.

Please forgive me for my flaws this summer and know that I love you!!!!
Love, Julie

Cafe Johnsonia said...

I hope everything goes well. I'm nervous for you, but you can do it!

Laurie Jones said...

I am feeling a little sad for you. I don't have twins and a toddler obviously, but I have left home to go to a strange place and have cried and cried missing my family. But, you will adjust there as you have adjusted so many times before. Hang in there and keep blogging so we know how you are doing. It was great to be able to see you!

Jenilee said...

Being away from family totally stinks sometimes, but we will all do it together right? We didn't make it back to Utah this year. Even though we saw family at graduation, it feels like it has been forever.
You will do a great job Jen. Who knows, maybe you will have a super nice neighbor who is ready and willing to help. Good luck.

Winnie said...

Good luck. Hope the flight goes well for you.

Julie said...

You can do it!! I went alone with my 3 at Christmas, and that was alone. It was okay. People are s.o nice, and helpful.

I'm sorry no one is close to you. Check out the library, ours has awesome story time and it's a great way to meet people with kids.

If I was anywhere close I could come visit! :) I wish you lots of luck!!!

Anne Marie said...

Best of luck with EVERYTHING! You are soooo lucky to have such great family members. It would be so much better to have them closeby. I have lived in 6 different states as a mom, and some of my best friends were made in areas where the church members were few and far between. Somehow we became close because we needed each other so much, even if that meant driving 10-15 minutes to get to each other's houses. I HATE moving...done it 12 times during my 12 years of marriage and hate it every time.

Shannon said...

I will pray for a 12 year old needing your family to live in your complex O.K. and then she'll pop up one day. Wallah. You will muddle through, we all do. I love the picture of Julie with which twin?

Susie said...

Beautiful (and well deserved) tribute! I just keep thinking about President Benson's famous "Men and women who turn their lives over to God will find that He can make much more of their lives than they can. He'll deepen their joys expand their vision . . . (all sorts of other things) raise up friends and pour out peace." (Itallics and underline don't work on this or "raise up Friends" would have been amphasized!)

H. said...

You can do this girl...I can't wait to hear how you conquer Miami and get in the zone with your kiddos.

Heather said...

Jen, just remember you aren't alone. Mike and I are not that far away. I would love to come help you any time you need it. I am just working part time so I have the time. Don't be afraid to ask for help. We are only an hour away. Hope to see you soon!