October 19th. The one year anniversary of this little discovery:
In commemoration, I have a few thoughts for you, babies.
Sometimes I wish I could stick you back inside of me for a little while - just so I had an excuse to still be fat.
When you were growing fetuses I used to take naps every day. WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED????
Do you remember nights when you were in the womb? Whenever I would roll over, whoever ended up on the bottom would start kicking the one who ended up on top in protest. I was annoyed because I wanted to sleep, but I couldn't help smiling at the consistency of always wanting to be the one on top.
Are you ever going to realize that you're not really doing anything? Yeah, yeah, I know there are millions of little neurons firing and pathways making connections, but sometimes I just look at you and think, aren't you bored? How many times can you really play with your toes without thinking - hmm, this is getting old. Like one day aren't you going to wake up and just think, hey I don't feel like staring at things and drooling today.
Remember that day when everyone of us in the house actually took a good nap - all at the same time? Yeah, me neither.
You are not very graceful teethers. You guys will owe me for that some day.
I will admit that on occasion, and I mean rare occasion, I have actually been excited for you to wake up because I know that this will greet me:
I love that you boys can drink your bottles with your feet sticking straight up in the air. Bet you have a six-pack under all that chub. (I say this when I look in the mirror too.)
And I love that I can walk over and tell when you pulled your bottles out and have been trying to get them back in: your face is dotted with milk - eyelids, forehead, cheeks...but you still haven't gotten it back in your mouth. So cute.
I love that you guys find each other entertaining. The first time I caught a glimpse of this it made me so happy. We came home and it was late, you were cranky. I put you both on the playmat thinking you would cry your heads off within 30 seconds. But then I got busy, putting things away, getting dinner ready, and kept thinking, wow, I can't believe they're not freaking out yet. Then I heard giggles. And I saw you looking at each other and giggling. I only caught a little on video. But it made me very hopeful for the future - like I hope you keep each other entertained a lot.
Everyone always asks us if we can tell personality differences yet. Not too much. People will say one of you is the happy one, but the next day it will be the other one. The only thing that has remained the same is that Phoenix, you are still the spaz. You were that way from the womb. Ashton was content to just chill, and Phoenix was always the one bumping around. Even now, you are always moving your hands or feet or wiggling all over the place, and Ashton is still just content to lay there and look chubby.
Good thing you're getting a lot cooler now. I wouldn't want to re-live the last almost 8 months again for anything. Unless I had to go through it again to have you.