Thursday, June 18, 2009

Weighty matters

Well, for about 15 months now, I've been waiting for my chance to do the "I finally lost all the baby weight!" post. I have two other friends who had twins and did that post at about two or three months after they had their babies. (Yeah, love them but grrrr.) Apparently that is just not me. And everyone else who manages to lose weight nursing? Also not me. In fact I gained weight while nursing. So at a year after they were born, I was finally back to what I weighed two weeks after I had the babies. Go figure. Yeah, I lost weight coming home from the hospital, then the more they ate, the more I gained. It was really depressing. In fact, I've pondered that over the past year, how crazy it is that gaining weight can really do so much to your mood and your disposition. It's really too bad it has to have that much effect.

But for the last couple months, I've almost been back to the pre-twins weight. I keep waiting for that last three pounds to come off, but then I remember that it was at that point with Cash that I finally got nasty food poisoning to get that last little bit off. Well, since I'm not hoping for food poisoning, apparently it's not coming off any time soon, and some of you were nice enough to notice, I guess this will be my at-least-I-almost-got-the-baby-weight-off! celebration. I guess I should just not eat for a couple days to see if I can at least hit it once so I can say I did, huh?

But I will tell you this, it sure has made me appreciative of my body. Even 10 lbs ago I started feeling so much happier about my body and wondering why in the world I spent time in high school and college complaining about my weight or worrying about it when I would've given anything to have it back! Really, I will never do that again. I don't have to be rail thin. And I don't want to waste time worrying about getting weight off when I'm already fine. Especially at this time in my life. I have more important things to do and I don't have all day to work out, so for now I am just happy with things the way they are! Don't get me wrong, I've been working my butt off. In fact, sometimes it seems so unfair that I have to work my butt off running around after these kids all day and the still go work my butt off at the gym after they go to bed. But I am super grateful that I'm not toting around an extra 25lbs anymore. And my clothes fit. Phew.

But I wonder if that's why I feel like I'm in a much better mood than I was 6 months ago. Or if it's the fact that I'm getting more used to Miami. Or that I love the stage the babies are at right now. They are so stinking cute. And slightly less crabby. And lots more fun. But we have to get out a lot or everyone here does go crazy, which actually has forced me to exercise more than I would otherwise. Too hard to go to the playground by myself, so we go on lots of walks, and since I know I'm going to be dripping sweat in this weather anyway, I might as well make it into a work out. And then adding in weights helped me to start noticing a difference. And pilates, and yoga, and swimming. In fact I've become a real fan of switching it up, especially when I realized that even doing yoga - which I didn't really think was exercise because you aren't running your butt off - still makes a difference. It makes it more enjoyable for me that way. (Yeah, but don't worry - I've taken to getting yoga videos and trying it in the privacy of my own home now.)

Anyway, I don't really know where I'm going with this post. I guess I'm happy right now: happy that I accomplished something that obviously didn't come as easily to me as it does to others; happy that the kids are cute and fun and interacting with each other, pretending like they can talk, and a little more flexible now; happy that I'm enjoying it here; and happy that in two more weeks Ryan will be a second year and hopefully have more normal hours! Hooray!


Tennille said...

Yeah, I didn't realize I was one of those women who hangs onto weight while nursing until I stopped nursing the twins at 6 weeks and lost the weight somewhat quickly after that. Before, I always thought it was the whole rule that "it takes nine months to put the weight on so it will take nine months to take it off." Hmph.

I do wish that weight didn't have so much to do with how we feel about ourselves, but it does. And feeling good about your weight just makes everything a little better. Glad you're figuring out how to get in more workouts. You look great. :)

Marci said...

I hear you, lady! I had so many people promise that my weight would just "melt away" because I was nursing. Yeah, right! At least you're out there trying, working out and getting closer to that lofty goal. I just finished a jelly-fillied donut while watching Batman, because my baby is finally asleep (my first donut in a couple years, though). Keep up the good work, and hopefully I can gain some inspiration from your efforts. And thanks for your condolences, er um, well wishes. Thank heavens for Hawaii, it was our last hoorah before major real life hit (Corey was called as Bishop the Sunday we got back). It's pretty hard to wander around in a new ward where I know about 4% of the people, but everyone knows me. Life's a little funny sometimes. I'm glad Ryan's crossing over into a little better schedule for you as a family, should be good to know you survived the worst of it, right?

Sharon said...

I love this whole Happy and Miami in the same sentence. Because I know Miami is happy to have you!
BTW.... You do look super!!!

Winnie said...

I feel your pain. It's so hard fro me to lose weight while i'm nursing too...very depressing but i guess I have to eat enough to feed my little Maggie.

You look great in the black dress that you wore to the formal dinner a couple of months looked like a model.

Cafe Johnsonia said...

I feel your pain, too. (Although it's pretty obvious I need to lose more than 3 lbs!) I keep debating whether or not to stop nursing at a year with Betta. I know the weight will start coming off if I's so hard!

Geoff and Bets said...

go jen!

Melanie said...

yay for you! I too am 10 pounds heavier after having H but I would never complain about it. I too have been hitting the gym and find it more enjoyable. Probably because it is just some nice alone time for me. I love just wondering around doing a few sets on the weights then doing stairs for a while then the bike. Im very ADD when it comes to exercise.

Anonymous said...

So true, so true. Even when we know that logically we shouldn't expect the weight to melt away in a matter of months, it is hard to be patient and cheerful. I also have to tell myself that those who bounce back to normal in a few months are the exception, not me! I'm always thinking, if I just had time to go somewhere by myself and find some clothes that fit me right now, so that I'm not muffin-toppin' it around town every day, maybe I wouldn't feel like such a loser, or, haha, "gainer." But I am trying to make myself give my body a break and align my expectations with reality.

You really do look great. I noticed in your beach post! I would have thought you were down to pre-preg weight long ago judging by the way you look!

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Anonymous said...

So fun to hear about them trying to talk. We can hardly wait until you get to Utah.

Congratulations on the results of all your hard work.


Lima Bean said...

At four weeks postpartum, I find myself in that "ready to exercise but not quite sure my body is ready so probably going to wait until the 6 week checkup clearance but I've lost all the weight I'm going to post-hospital and now I just feel flabby" That was a mouthful and probably didn't make a lot of sense. I'd like to think I will be able to lose the rest when I can start exercising again, but, like you, I have a difficult time. So I should be prepared for it to take 15 months too and then if it takes shorter I will be pleasantly surprised.

Good job, though. Weight has everything to do with how we feel and how nice we are to our kids. Why? I don't know either.

Jenilee said...

Jen, I am so excited for you. Congratulations!!! I am so happy that you are happy and loving life right now. It makes such a difference.
I am still struggling with getting the weight off, so thank you for the inspiration to keep going.

Rebecca said...

Jen, You really need to call me on this one. I have gained and lost now over 200 pounds (4 pregnancies plus a mission to France). I think that counts too. People tell me all the time how much better I look and my baby is 16 months old! My last pregnancy I gained 60 with her! It is NOT easy and totally demoralizing. I always secretly hoped for twins so I could get 2 for the price of one pregnancy=weight gain. I can give you a pep talk any time you feel terrible about this. Really, it boils down to genetics. I didn't strike to lotto on being rail thin with mine. So, we work at it every day! good luck and you do look great!

Ty and Trista Swartzlander said...

I am so happy for you. I know what a difference it makes in my mood when I am at a weight that is right for me. Congratulations!!! You look like a super hot mama. I was checking you out in Cash's Birthday pics. ;)

Catherine Call said...

Congrtats on:

-the weight coming off and looking FANTASTIC(I really noticed in the beach pics from Cash's party)!!
-Ryan finishing up the horrible first year
-the boys entering an easier phase
-being happy!!!

Kudos for all the above.

Susie said...

You do look great! I can relate to the ups and downs of checking the numbers. It was for that reason the scale went to the D.I. after the second baby, and I've never regretted it. You wake up feeling great and the clothes fit so you get on the scale and find things are worse than you thought and it ruins your day. No more! If I wake up and feel great and the clothes fit I don't need a number to confirm it!

SuburbiaMom said...

Well--whatever weight you are Jen--you always looks gorgeous!

I don't think you should go by weight alone. I always go by how I'm fitting in my clothes and what I see in the mirror before getting in the shower. I weigh a little bit more than I did a few years ago but I've also been lifting weights more than before--and muscle weighs more than fat--so your extra few pounds is just muscle from hefting little boys around! :)

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