Monday, May 26, 2008

Monday afternoons


Different day, different baby. It really is pretty sweet. I have to keep reminding myself that because I usually think it would be even sweeter if they were sleeping that soundly in their own little cribs and I didn't have to keep doing this to get them to sleep!

Friday, May 23, 2008

3 month status

Phoenix (left), Ashton (right) (same below)


The twins are three months old tomorrow. Here are some of their milestones:

Number of diapers used: We estimate around 1200.

Number of times they've slept 8 hours straight. Once - right after they had their first shots.

Number of round trip cross-country flights: 2. One more next month.

Number of colds: 2 each.

Number of times a baby has rolled off the nursing pillow: Twice. Once was only onto the couch. Once I caught him as he was plummeting head first off the couch. Sorry Phoenix, I think it was you both times.

Number of weeks I actually haven't been sore from nursing: About 2. Not consecutive. Hence the mastitis.

Number of times Cash has voluntarily had contact with the babies: 0
So I have no idea how my mom bribed him into these pictures:




There also could be other stats, like how many times I've gotten spit-up in my hair, how many times I've been up at night, how many tantrums Cash has thrown while I nurse the babies, or how many times I tell Ryan not to get his dress shirt on before he burps the babies. I also wonder if there's a way to quantify the amount of crying that goes on in this house because holy cow it's a lot, and quite often all three at the same time.

It sure is hard to get a picture of the two of them smiling together though!


Good job babies! Keep growing up. Until you sleep until 10am like your brother. (Ok, that's only sometimes, but quite frequently lately. Sure don't mind it though.)

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

I know that after that post about Cash, you all think he's a brilliant child. Well,

lest I lead you all astray and to be a little more humble, I should warn you that the kid isn't really the charmer of social skills. Should you ever meet him, you will most likely be met with these:

The suspicious and skeptical sideways glance. Ryan's family got a good laugh last week when we were home that he could give such a good stare down and such funny looks(and the pictures don't even do it justice). He won't say a word to you and he'll stare you down like nobody's business. In fact, people here who saw the videos of him were like, "Cash can talk?" Yeah, smart and anti-social, that's how we train 'em.

Mastitis. Woah.

Ok, this has completely knocked me on my butt this week. I got the works - fever, chills, achy, weak, headaches like you can't believe, and of course unimaginable boob pain. Seriously, after three months of this I'm still getting sore and having open wounds, I'm not even a great milk producer to begin with so we've started giving them a little formula a couple times a day after I nurse them anyway, and now mastitis? Why am I doing this? As I got out of the shower this morning and was shaking my head as I looked down at the sad condition of my boobs I had to laugh as the first thing that came into my mind was the song "Why can't we be friends? Why can't we be friends..."

Also, today I suddenly have some viscious diarrhea in addition. Not sure if it's from the medication or what. I knew a girl in New York who used to say, "I'm one flu away from my ideal weight." So true - I only lost the final 5 pounds after having Cash when I got a nasty bout of food poisoning. Well, I'm about 5 flus (flues? floosies?) away from my ideal weight, but here's hoping we can get that down to like, three.

Unfortunately Ryan was away on overnight call again. And don't worry - I know you all wish you were here to help. I wish you were too. :)

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Things I should appreciate but don't:

* Birds chirping. I know, it sounds terrible, but let me explain. Every morning I seem to be feeding the babies around 3:30am or so. During that time, probably around 4am, birds start chirping outside our window. I HATE it. It sends me into a frenzied panic. I freak out because they're trying to imply that it's morning and that the night is slipping away from me while I'm desperately trying to cling to it. I always want to open the front door and start throwing rocks at them and tell them to shut up! It's not morning yet! I've hardly even slept! As I sit there, I envision that scene from Steel Magnolias where he gets out his shotgun right before the wedding and starts shooting into the trees to get rid of the birds. Everything gets covered in turd, but it is so worth it....

* When people say, "You had twins? You look great." Because I know they're not saying, "You look normal," or "You look just like you used to!" or "You look like you're not wearing fat pants anymore!" I know I look like I had twins. I'm not being self-depricating, just honest. I don't lose the weight easily while I'm nursing. I know most people are otherwise. I know what they really mean is, "You look great compared to the gigantic-ness that must have been you a few months ago." Which, I guess is true. I probably should have posted this before I went home and saw people because some of them will probably say that I did look fine. Yeah, well thank you Waistnipper, and thank you Laura for posting about it.

Things I just don't really appreciate, period:

*I just have to say how bad I hate postpartum hormones. As Ryan puts it, I'm either hot, or....hot. There is nothing worse than those dang night sweats. Ugh. SO gross. Luckily they're dying down, a little. But the hair in unwanted places has returned and so have the break-outs.

*Whenever some baby is crying in the middle of the night I let them cry for a while, then finally drag my behind downstairs just to find two little peacefully sleeping angels. Not even a red-faced baby to let me know who to be mad at. Ok, I guess I appreciate it a little bit. But then when it happens 10 minutes later, and 10 minutes after that, it gets a little less cute. Man, they sure haven't been the easy little babies they used to be anymore!

*Twin comments. Some of them are cute and of course everyone knows someone with twins, has twins, is a twin, heard something one time about twins... but the one that gets me is when people ask, "Are they twins?" I mean seriously. Don't you think it's a pretty safe assumption that these two babies in my double stroller that are remarkably close in size weren't conceived by me at least nine months apart?

Monday, May 12, 2008

Passing


Ryan's mother, Patricia, passed away yesterday. She suffered from MS for many many years and recently came down with pneumonia. Friday night we found out it that she was not doing very well and that all of Ryan's siblings were flying in to see her. Ryan was able to leave early Saturday morning with Cash to get to Utah to see her. Thanks to my sister flying to Chicago to come get me and probably some serious miracles to make everything work out, I arrived with the twins that evening and Pat was able to meet her twin grandchildren shortly before they removed her oxygen. Apparently she had had a picture of them next to her bedside there in the hospital, and it was very special to us to have her be able to meet them before she passed on.
It was a hard thing to watch, but all 9 of her children were surrounding her and all felt very peaceful about her passing. It's sort of bittersweet that Ryan's mother passed away on Mother's day, and I found out my father had passed away on Father's day. When we all said our goodbyes to Pat though I felt strangely that this would be the closest I would ever be to the other side and I really did feel like I could pass on a message, so I asked her to say hello to my dad if she sees him.
Her funeral will be tomorrow. She will be missed, but we are happy for her.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Seriously...

Ok, so I guess the only thing worse than finding out you're moving into a two-bedroom apartment in Miami is finding out that you're not moving in because the landlord changed his mind about renting out the apartment. So after dragging the whole family plus my mom down to Miami to spend an arduous week house hunting, we are now actually empty handed. Seriously. Can this day get any worse?

And really, I'm sorry for all these negative posts! There really are good things that happen around here (just can't think of any right now). And I was thinking that I should clarify that I don't think my life is necessarily worse than any of the rest of you. I just depict mine more. :) And it's not worse than anyone with three kids in general. At least we can hole ourselves up in the house and not have to go anywhere. I can only imagine having twins and have to run older kids to school and other activities. Yuck.

Lots of firsts today

Wow. I've never really had to discipline Cash before, but the hysterical toddler is currently back in his crib with a water, a power bar, and no immediate hope of release.

I gave him some ibuprofen in case there's some unknown ailment that is causing this behavior, but I probably should have given him some Benadryl to just knock him out.

Let the diet Coke begin.