Ok, I have three days for one of you to talk me out of my latest rash decision. I bought a gym membership last night. I woke up this morning and saw the papers on the counter and cringed, remembering what I'd done. It's 100 city blocks away (can't take the freeway). I already have an elliptical machine in my house and a gym in my building, both of which I use consistently. The new gym costs money. I have two herniated discs and don't go for a lot of intense exercise anymore. And, frankly, I'm not feeling totally motivated to work out since I don't really give a hoot about being super fit right now. I know, that sounds so funny. But really, I don't want to be fat, I want a moderate level of fitness, but beyond that I just don't care. I think I've given over to the idea that there are times and seasons in our lives and I've just decided that being super-fit is just not a priority to me right now. It used to be - I used to be a total gym-goer back in college, during the mating season, you could say. But now? Well, I don't really feel the need to impress anyone. My husband pretty much hasn't worked out since we got married and I'm a mom with three kids who sees just about no one most days of the week. If I look a little soft at the beach, I'm ok with that. I'm already a misfit there since I don't have implants anyway. :)
Those are all the reasons it's so silly that I got a membership. Here's pretty much what it boils down to: I can get rid of my kids for a couple hours a week!
Truthfully, since there are no feasible options for a preschool for the twins for a couple hours a week, it's actually the cheapest option for getting myself a break. What started me thinking about it was that a friend mentioned she had a membership there. I realized that I could change my mind and sign Cash up for a Montessori school that's up that way for pre-K next year. I hadn't really considered it before because the thought of having to drive 20-25 minutes to school every morning for a whole year and get myself and three kids there by 8:30am made me a little sick to my stomach. And with it being so far away, I definitely wouldn't go and come back home only to go pick him up 3 hours later, so I'd have to have myself and three dependent and quite resistant children dressed and ready, with snacks packed, diaper bag stocked and everyone out the door - all by 8am every morning. Phew.
So when my friend mentioned the gym I thought, hmm, I guess I could drop off Cash, go to the gym and have an hour or two to myself a couple mornings a week. That sounded pretty appealing. I realized additionally, I already go up that way at least two mornings a week for playgroup as it is, and Costco and anything else I go to is up there as well. So, I guess even if I don't feel the motivation to go sweat my guts out on days I go to the gym I can just go sit in the sauna or the hot tub and just hide from everyone. (That's usually my request when Ryan gets home anyway - can I just go lock myself in a room alone and hide from everyone for like 5 minutes? Or even just go to the bathroom by myself without three kids touching me?) But I do go back and forth, thinking really, my idea of a break from the kids is to go force myself to expend more energy? On purpose????
So now I just have to get over the fact that I didn't have a wonderful experience touring the school I thought I would sign him up for (think of another awful experience dragging all three of your kids into a school filled with tons of hands on materials and having your tour guide keep yelling at you to get your kids out of everything - even though I called specifically to ask if I could bring kids....oh, not to mention an entire bag of jelly bean bribery dumped all over the floor...) Anyway, the friends I have that have their kids there are really happy with it. So I guess I'll give it a try.
Unless someone can talk me out of this gym membership nonsense. I have three days to cancel!